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You call it "just how I am.”

But, doesn't it sometimes feel lonely in that carefully constructed fortress of self-reliance?

From the outside, you seem capable.

But, inside? You might be quietly unraveling.

That’s not just burnout. That’s the overfunctioning trauma response, a nervous system stuck in overdrive, long after danger has passed.

We tend to talk about trauma responses in terms of fight, flight, orfreeze trauma response. But there’s a fourth one we don’t talk about nearly enough, fawn.

"Triggered" has become one of those words that gets thrown around everywhere.

On Instagram captions, in group chats, even as a joke at the dinner table.

But if you’ve lived through trauma, emotional neglect, or a chronically unsafe upbringing, you know that being triggered is anything but funny.

If the idea of yoga makes you feel excited and self-conscious, curious and overwhelmed, welcome! You’re not alone, so many people have a very similar experience.

Maybe you’ve never stepped on a mat because you weren’t sure your body, your anxiety, or your trauma history could actually feel safe in that space.

Understanding the intricate connection between binge eating and complex post-traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD) is crucial in your journey toward healing and recovery

Rather than focusing on perfect poses or performance, it centers choice, consent, and body awareness, creating a space where you’re invited to move at your own pace, stay connected to what feels safe, and rebuild trust in your body over time.

It’s not about “fixing” anything. It’s about offering your body the care, attunement, and autonomy it may not have had before.

You know that kind of relationship that feels electric at first?

The one that sweeps you up, makes you feel chosen, alive, like maybe this time, finally, you’ve found something real?

But then, almost without warning, it shifts.

The warmth cools.

The attention fades.

And, you’re left holding the thread, trying to make sense of what just happened.

Let’s be real: maladaptive perfectionism is like that mother-in-law who shows up uninvited and starts reorganizing your kitchen.

At first, it seems helpful. Motivating, even. You tell yourself, “Well… she means well.”

But next thing you know, everything’s in a “better” place… and you can’t find a damn thing anymore.

The practice of yoga has offered me so much over the years. It’s hard to imagine myself without the tools I've gained from this practice. 

This is not to say that yoga is the magic solution to all of our individual and worldly problems. (I wish it were!)

But instead of drifting into sleep, your thoughts pick up speed. Suddenly, you’re reviewing every awkward conversation you’ve ever had, planning tomorrow’s to-do list, worrying about things you can’t control, and now it’s 1:42 a.m. and your brain is still going.

Sound familiar?

Let me start with this… if you’re here, reading this, you’re probably not looking for a list of scary facts. You’ve already lived through enough of that, in your doctor’s office, in your own head, maybe even from the people who were supposed to care for you.

If you’ve been working through recovery, whether from trauma, an eating disorder, or years of feeling like you had to hold it all together, there’s a good chance you’ve bumped into perfectionism.

Many people who have experienced trauma struggle with fragmented memories, intense emotions, and physical sensations they can't explain. Understanding the sciencey, neurobiology of trauma, can provide insights into these experiences and start to clear a path for healing.

Binge eating at night is a challenge many people face.

This way of eating involves consuming a lot of food rapidly until you feel uncomfortable. Afterward, you may experience feelings of guilt and shame. It can become a cycle of behaviors that can feel hard to end or escape.

There are moments in recovery from trauma and eating disorders that are easy to miss.

You might feel your shoulders drop after a hard conversation. Or find yourself breathing through a grocery store line instead of dissociating. Or realize you’re actually tasting your food.

If you’ve been showing up for therapy, practicing self-awareness, setting boundaries, and still find yourself overwhelmed or disconnected, it’s easy to wonder if you’re missing something, or not doing something “right”.

Feeling disconnected from your body is far more common than most people realize.

Research shows that nearly half of people with trauma histories experience significant dissociation - a protective process where your system pulls you away from overwhelming thoughts, emotions, or sensations.

You don’t remember a tragic event.

There was no funeral. No big goodbye.

You were clothed. Fed. Maybe even told you were loved.

And yet... there’s this ache.

If you’re struggling with how you feel in your body after having a baby, whether it’s been six weeks or six years, please know: there is nothing wrong with you.

If you’ve ever quietly wondered, "do men get eating disorders?" the answer is yes.

Absolutely, yes.

If you’re a man struggling with you’re relationship with food and your body, we see you.

If you’ve ever found yourself wondering whether you have complex PTSD (CPTSD) or borderline personality disorder (BPD), or if you’ve been given conflicting diagnoses, many people have had similar experiences.

Maybe someone’s tone of voice sets something off inside you, or you make a small mistake and suddenly feel like a complete failure, unworthy of love or belonging.

No clear memory. No obvious trigger. Just an emotional landslide that feels impossible to stop.

If you grew up feeling like you couldn’t rely on anyone, it makes sense that as an adult, you might operate like you don’t need anyone.

Hyper-independence, being so self-reliant that you struggle to ask for or receive help, often gets framed as a strength.

People admire it.

They call you “capable,” “driven,” and “strong.”

Self-care. It’s benefits are everywhere.

Bubble baths, face masks, cozy blankets.

And sure, those things can be great.

But the deepest, most radical self-care?

It’s not always cute.

Narcissistic abuse doesn’t just end when the relationship does.

The damage lingers: self-doubt, emotional exhaustion, nervous system burnout, and a nagging feeling that maybe it really was all your fault.

It’s not.

Narcissistic abuse is one of the most confusing and damaging forms of emotional manipulation.

It doesn’t leave visible scars, but it deeply impacts your sense of self, making you question your reality, your worth, and even your ability to trust your own mind.

You know that feeling…That moment when you walk into a room, maybe a party, a meeting, even a family gathering, and suddenly, it hits.

“Everyone else seems to know something I don’t.

They belong here. I don’t.”

Lately healing the inner child has been trending on social media. Tik tok’ers and tik tok therapists are sharing tips and touting that the way to heal from trauma is to heal your inner child.

But, what exactly does that mean? Why is it important? Is it really that easy? (spoiler alert- it’s important and often not as easy as they say it is!)